why Thailand?

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

ok the fact is I dont take my bath yet is  really disgusting .

 xpe husband jauh. muahaha. dang.

less than a month I m going to bangkok to settle all the things there.

some people asking me, why bangkok? u got offered to go to US and germany but y choose thailand?

Ok, I want to clarify this thing. In life we have to choose. And our choice will be the best depends on how we react to it.

for example, kau rasa boyf kau terbaik sebab kau respond dia sebagai yang terbaik walhal bagi orang lain he is not the best for you. this is how we actually respond to our situation.

kita yang bina suasana rite? bukan suasana yang bina kita.

I told you earlier, I cannot live in comfort zone. Since I was graduated from UPM I never feel any comfort zone inside and outside. Abah was and still sick, got married, Seek for better jobs and many more.But it doesnt mean hati tak tenang. itu lain cerita.

Ia bukanlah aku mengeluh tapi mmg hidup ni tak boleh just sit back and relax. This is my fate I guess. Alhamdulilah, aku bersyukur atas kurniaanNya.

ok back to the topic. why thailand? ada orang buat muka. eeyuw, why so near, Thailand is not safe for god sake. why?

ok let me story,

because I m scholars from UiTM, I have to go through many procedures including 2-3 times presentations and short course. during the presentation they will tell us kita bole pegi negara mana. and while searching for which country you want to go, ada jugak certain country /supervisor yang tak respond, walhal at the same time you are running out of time because scholarship ni ada due date.

at first, I feel down, but being me, saya cuma akan cerita pada mak, atau pun kakak, or my husband. 3 manusia paling rapat.

my mum is my great motivator, dia tak pernah cakap apa-apa buruk. the abah just smile. tak pernah cakap apa2 pun. buruk pun tidak, memuji melambung pun tidak. dia tahu, I ve done so many things alone. I dont want to say I am independent.  Bongkak nama nya. I am not tp most of the time, I am alone doing anything.

nk g german husband kena ikut. bapak jauh. unfortunately he wont have visa to work there. kesian masa depan my husband. 

nk g US, kene amik GRE, oh Dear Allah, I am running out of time.

and after I ask my former lecturer yang sgt menjadi pujaan hati ni, He suggested for me to go to Thai.

after that ade sedikit ujian, and lepas suami merestui , ibu bapa merestui baik in law atau kandung. everything just masuk semula landasan dia.

dan aku harap landasan ini akan kekal sehingga aku dapat tengok mak ayah, suami, adik beradik senyum bila aku naik pentas amik scroll.

AMIN!

tlg doakan aku yang serba kekurangan, pandai tidak, genius pun tidak tapi aku bergantung pada kuasa Allah. semoga Allah beriku kekuatan. 

AMIN!