a start

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

hari ni husband dah balik labuan. gittew. ok sila tukar mode sedih sebab blog owner tgh sedih.

frankly speaking, I never thought after kami kahwin, the feeling is a total different compared to before kahwin.

ingat kan same je*dushdushdush*

yela, sebab kami mana biasa duk dekat lama-lama. maksud saya stay satu tempat same2. sebab bila sy di UPM, die di trganu bla bla bla.

of course, I wont let this become one of my problem anyway..

but husband is husband.

he told me,

-saya lihat awak sebagai rezeki dari Allah yang dtg dalam hidup saya.

hmm sometimes, I wonder, this guy, is not a romantic type sume but I love to remember dia punya pesan.

bukan bermaksud diri ini obsessive, tp it is one way to reduce the pain inside my heart while he is not around.

in this 2 weeks, pegi mana-mana semua same2, makan, lepak, tgok cerita.. that's why terkesan sgt..

feeling gloomy.but still, daus wont tolerate if I cry, dia akan diam je. cannot expect ada org pujuk ke apa.sebab daus tak suka share sgt bila dia rasa sedih same, atau rasa tak selesa...

tapi bila dapat msg die kejap tadi,

I continue crying...

"saya rasa blur je dunia, sebab isteri saya tak ada.. i miss her"

Ya Allah... make me strong..... this is just a start.