Tuesday, September 30, 2014

perjalananku

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hari ni aku masuk half day ke lab. 

seronok tapi tengah2 buat kerja pandangan jadi gelap pulak.

adeh takkan pitam kot? ye pandangan mata dah berpinar nasib baik sempat capai kerusi.

pastu terus tunduk sebab rasa pening tiba-tiba. b.p low ke, tak makan pagi ke , xtau la.

tapi makan je pagi tadi. makan roti.

tak cukup makanan ke baby? haha. idokle aku tau kan.

tapi dugaan kesihatan ni boleh datang bila-bila masa je.

mak aku paling gelabah if blood pressure aku low. dah berapa kali rebah di pangkuan beliau dulu-dulu.

di pangkuan gittew. ayat macam ermmm. haha.

tapi bila jadi camtu aku cecepat call mak aku. suka mengadu kekdahnya. hihi.

mesti mak aku risau. tapi aku lagi risau kalau tak bagitau mak aku.

ape je nasihat dia pastu menyenangkan hati aku.

"ayu, sila pegi makan segera"

"okey mi"

aku dah tahu pun tapi bila mak bercakap kan. serta merta start kereta pergi makan.

kalau call daus, akan cakap

"wahh, anak saya kuat makan, sampai pitam ibu nya..."

lawak tak kena tempat bang. haha.

but I will call both if anything happen. sorang penenang hati sorang suka wat lawak tak kira masa.

tapi yang paling penting , ingat lah nikmat kesihatan yang Allah bagi. tak ternilai harganya.

sobsob. terima kasih Ya Allah.

p/s: malam ni tak dapat attend kelas istimewa tu. sedih sebab terpaksa. :(

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

hidup baru

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hari ni super penat. lab n class for a whole day.

to my baby: please be strong together we walk towards success. gitteww.

aku kadang takde berkawan ni duk bercakap la suh dia kuat sikit.

saje je la padahal nak kasik semangat kat diri ni.

so far alahan dah berkurang, Alhamdulilah.

semput2 je masa regis second semester dah almost 4 months. and alahan berkurang. tapi still ada.

aku dah syukur berlipat lipat ganda dah.

aritu langsung x boleh bau nasik since puasa sampai la awal september.

bau nasik muntah makan nasik muntah tengok nasik muntah

thorbaik.

so, berat pun dah jadi 38 to 39 kgs. 7 kilo turun.

sekarang i m struggle to increase my weight back.

jenuh la mummy and daus call hari-hari tanya makan apa. risau la tu kot.

nasik dah mampu telan walaupun tak sampai sebungkus. syukur ya Allah.

so far baby dah ikut berat yang sepatutnya. scan nak tengok jantina tapi dia pemalu mcm bapak dia. hahaha. pemalu lah sangat bapak dia kann.*gedik2 kening*

so die kepit. nanti lah lenkali kita check awak lagi ye baby.

oklah, tu je perkembangan kita hari ini ye. nanti update lagi kalau rajin. kalau malas, kita sadaikan blog sampai berkulat.

hewhew.


Monday, September 8, 2014

hurt

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dah lama tak menulis. mood kelaut. mungkin.

daus dah balik ke Labuan. 

awal bulan 6, masa aku pergi sana melawat kawasan haha aku tinggal daus kat airport

aku perasan daus nampak sedih

perasaan ditinggalkan ni tak best kan?

Dah setahun lebih pun, aku belajar banyak dari hubungan kami supaya tak sedih dah.

nak-nak bila pregnant, aku tak nak emosi terganggu.

kali ni daus balik lama sebab nak settlekan urusan aku.

sempat lagi dia demam 3-4 hari.

sempatla aku jaga dia kejap. tak jaga sangat pun. dah tua kan. haha.

tadi hantar dia balik labuan lagi.

pagi tu okey, it was fine all the way alone driving back to destination.

tapi malam ni duk teringat-ingat. aku baca orang tulis kalau terlalu rindu suami kita kena sedekah al fatihah atau yasin, meskipun belum meninggal.

terima kasih Allah sebab pinjamkan suami dan ibu yang baik pada ku.

aku terlalu rindu mereka.

:'(

Sunday, August 17, 2014

my pregnancy

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tehehe- feeling dizzy. how are you?

for those who followed my instagram already knew that i m expecting a baby.

3 ++ months already and it is superbly amazing feeling deep inside my heart.

and amazing alahan experience too (T.T)

heheh, I never imagine I ll feel this way eventho mak dengan kakak pun experienced the same thing.

keturunan agaknya? hahah.

muntah pagi petang, malam kurang sikit. but I feel a lot dizzy lately.

go check at clinic, yeah tekanan darah n my hb is low. berdiri je rasa nak pitam.

it's not like i m having fever, but i feel so dizzy. I think 50% of preggie mummy will feel the same thing.

sorry me, this is my first time. so I just want to share what i feel. hahah.

I m freaking clingy to my husband all this while, during his stay on hari raya..i always ask him to massage my feet.. sumpah rasa lenguh mcm berlari 100m berpagar dan berganti-ganti.

after all, I thank Allah for giving me the opportunity to feel this way and hopefully my baby will grow healthily to be good muslim/muslimah in the future..

tolong doakan aku sekali ye. semoga cepat sihat.

:)

till then, good bye.

p/s: my phd is still going on, can we call my baby, baby phd? hahaha. sounds funny.

Monday, August 4, 2014

senyum

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nak senyum luas

lebar sampai nampak gusi

ngehehehe

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

my marriage

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hai :) bersua kembali. ngeh2.

malam ni I m not feeling well. td dah tidur and now, woke up again. tak bole tido dah.

I took my phone and tengok dah 22 July pun. yes, 5 more days before hari raya.

Last year I still remember I didnt have enough money to buy my own baju raya. and to my mummy too because of my tight budget for wedding.

BUT

my abang sulung gave me and my mum abaya, so we use that abaya for raya. Thanks-only-after-a year. haha.

last year, it was so hectic. I planned everything alone for wedding. some helped me with financial, decoration etc. some helped me with advices. Thanks to them.

It's almost a year. The memory is still there inside my head. kerje kahwin tak mudah. frankly speaking.

because all I want is keberkatan using my own money-eventho not all, and tak susahkan parents.

so ta-dah, it happened like I want (physically) haha.

But mentally, It was a new start for me.

I learned lots of thing in this marriage. How to cooperate, how to learn guys thingy-esp daus.

I also learnt that how we should put Allah first before human. I am sorry, I am a learner, and still learning. before this I know but I didnt put it solely into my heart. 

yes, this is how my marriage changes me. My parents taught me everything from the start and let me walk using my own feet in this challenge. Thanks to them.

Pray for me to get through this path happily with daus and Inshaa Allah with our future kids.

till we meet again guys.

bye!




Monday, July 7, 2014

pause

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wah, long pause. really looong pause.

blog ni dah bersawang sangat because I ignore it to the max.

dont have readers, so dont worry much about that.

during my silence, too many things happened.

be it good, be it less good.. but too many things happened lately.

I am a happy wife, still. and still married to a lovely husband err annoying sometimes. haha

and also a happy spoiled daughter to my mom :P

now, I m in Terengganu until September.

After I closed my fb account in May ? if I m not mistaken, I feel living in calm and peace.

Now I am considering to close my blog. 



still considering......

haha bye!