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ASSALAMUALAIKUM

hehe, just got back from KL.

berbengkel kekdahnya.

sometimes journey is very sweet.

for sure, naik bas buat ai muntah dua kali.

ok not pregnant.

haha.

psiko la ayu..

hati

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

hehehe, tinggal 18 hari je lagi sebelum ku melangkah kaki ke bumi seberang.

op kos la rindu kt pali, mi, kak ini n the kids. sobs.

but I have to go, aku tau , aku bawak impian dorang nk tgok mak cik diorang ni berjaye. muahaah.

ayat xde skema lagi yuuuu?.

oh ehem.

tak bleeey, mkin sentimental plak.

tadi sembang dgn mi teringt kat adik kecik aku kat sg buloh sane. nangis2 aku. sebab pali tu rapat dgn aku.

dia selalu susah hati tapi tak cakap. dulu2 kemain susah nk cari keje, last2 aku apply mcm2 supaya dia masuk gov sector. harapan aku besar pd adik aku tu. yela, aku xmo rmai org kutuk adik aku xde future.

Alhamdulilah, Allah dgr doa aku. nnt pali dah nak keje gov, Insya Allah. sama macam impian mak aku kat dia.

aritu masa aku kawen, pali pancit tayar moto, dekat 4 jam die tunggu org baiki kat highway. kesian pali.

sedih betul aku bila kenangkan adik aku sorang ni. yela, dia banyak tlg masa majlis kawen aritu.

husband pun sgt2 hargai ptolongan dia. sobsob. daus tau, aku berat ati nak tinggal pali ngan mi ngan abah.

dulu masa abah memule kene stroke, aku, pali ngan mi struggle, nerves, kejar ambulan same-same.

tapi one of the trio dah kene pergi jauh sebab nak berjihad tuntut ilmu.

hari tu pali kene pegi selangor, kolej kesihatan sg buloh. mi dah nerves sebab pali x indipendent orang nya. dia manja. adik bongsu kan. sampai medical check up pun nak berteman.

semoga Allah jaga mi, pali dan abah bila aku jauh. 

semoga kak yu dipermudahkan.

banyak doa aku pada Tuhanku. sebab aku tak berdaya. tapi pada Dia lah aku bergantung dan berharap.

aminn.

first monthsary

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

yeay dh sebulan hari ni kite kawen.

and the husband?

err still working at 6 ++ p.m

hahaha, pity him. tapi dia suka idok apela.

we have to like it as well. 

talking bout husband, daus, dopot, etc..

we dont have much time to be together, but we take it in positive way.

tahula kan tak sume bende ikut selera kita je.

we feel sad but we cannot make the sad feeling control us. matured enough kan while describe sume ni

tapi memula tu tergelincir jugak. Alhamdulilah.

hari ni bole gelak-gelak lagi when he asked me, memo the cat dah pregnant how about you?

then aku balas.

no need, my husband dah tlg pregnant. boleh lukis poket kanggaru kat perut awak tak? hahaha.

pastu die gelak besar-besar.

haha, I love everything about you dear husband. semoga hidup kita berdua akan sentiasa dirahmati Allah.

why Thailand?

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

ok the fact is I dont take my bath yet is  really disgusting .

 xpe husband jauh. muahaha. dang.

less than a month I m going to bangkok to settle all the things there.

some people asking me, why bangkok? u got offered to go to US and germany but y choose thailand?

Ok, I want to clarify this thing. In life we have to choose. And our choice will be the best depends on how we react to it.

for example, kau rasa boyf kau terbaik sebab kau respond dia sebagai yang terbaik walhal bagi orang lain he is not the best for you. this is how we actually respond to our situation.

kita yang bina suasana rite? bukan suasana yang bina kita.

I told you earlier, I cannot live in comfort zone. Since I was graduated from UPM I never feel any comfort zone inside and outside. Abah was and still sick, got married, Seek for better jobs and many more.But it doesnt mean hati tak tenang. itu lain cerita.

Ia bukanlah aku mengeluh tapi mmg hidup ni tak boleh just sit back and relax. This is my fate I guess. Alhamdulilah, aku bersyukur atas kurniaanNya.

ok back to the topic. why thailand? ada orang buat muka. eeyuw, why so near, Thailand is not safe for god sake. why?

ok let me story,

because I m scholars from UiTM, I have to go through many procedures including 2-3 times presentations and short course. during the presentation they will tell us kita bole pegi negara mana. and while searching for which country you want to go, ada jugak certain country /supervisor yang tak respond, walhal at the same time you are running out of time because scholarship ni ada due date.

at first, I feel down, but being me, saya cuma akan cerita pada mak, atau pun kakak, or my husband. 3 manusia paling rapat.

my mum is my great motivator, dia tak pernah cakap apa-apa buruk. the abah just smile. tak pernah cakap apa2 pun. buruk pun tidak, memuji melambung pun tidak. dia tahu, I ve done so many things alone. I dont want to say I am independent.  Bongkak nama nya. I am not tp most of the time, I am alone doing anything.

nk g german husband kena ikut. bapak jauh. unfortunately he wont have visa to work there. kesian masa depan my husband. 

nk g US, kene amik GRE, oh Dear Allah, I am running out of time.

and after I ask my former lecturer yang sgt menjadi pujaan hati ni, He suggested for me to go to Thai.

after that ade sedikit ujian, and lepas suami merestui , ibu bapa merestui baik in law atau kandung. everything just masuk semula landasan dia.

dan aku harap landasan ini akan kekal sehingga aku dapat tengok mak ayah, suami, adik beradik senyum bila aku naik pentas amik scroll.

AMIN!

tlg doakan aku yang serba kekurangan, pandai tidak, genius pun tidak tapi aku bergantung pada kuasa Allah. semoga Allah beriku kekuatan. 

AMIN!

pandai

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

bila kita rasa serba kurang,

serba tak pandai,

otomatik kita jadi rendah diri.

yela, tak luak pun kalau rendah diri. 

sama ada betul kita pandai atau tidak,

ilmu cuma pinjaman Allah pada kita.

tak kisah lah pandai dalam hubungan ke, pandai dalam hidup (ade ke?)

good day every one!

mulut

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

I agree, sometimes, we people, esp. girls kan, kalau org cakap hal buruk sikit mudah melenting.

masa awal perkahwinan, I heard some body kutuk my husband.

biasala, cakap- cakap orang. It's not kutuk yang teruk-teruk. kutuk ringan-ringan. ala-ala junk food while mengumpat . gittew.

at first, I feel like want to slap that smelly mouth and tell that person 'how dare kau mengutuk my beloved husband'.. but it just my imagination.

and I m not that brave either. muahahaha.

at first, rasa marah tu meluap-luap.

then, aku fikir-fikir sejenak, kenapa harus aku layan mulut-mulut orang? sedangkan orang yang mengata pun tak bagi impak pada aku. lain la dia siblings aku ke, parents aku ke. ptt jgk nak amik pot kan.

then second day, I still feel angry towards that person.

tapi today, I completely feel nothing..yelah, orang bercakap like they know everybody and they are always right.. 

I have my own mission in my life, buang nya masa kalau aku sakit hati pada benda sekecil ni sdgkan org yg mengata x affected pon.

:) owh..... this is life~

gambar

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

hey ya!

since I was young. my sister n mummy always keep their eyes on me. 

eventhough I am a married woman, they still treat me like a kid, I guess. ngahaha.

alkisahnya, what ever I posted on fb wall, my sister sometimes did not agree with it.

dulu-dulu, couple je, post gmbo boyfie awwwww~ cuwit sgt.

but my sister didnt like the way I expressed myself that time.

so we had different opinion, ye lah she is 6 years older than me. 

at that time, I never know that post everything, every pic with a guy who is not your mahram bukan saja berdose, malah tak manis.

bru bercinta kannn.

so, selepas beberapa tahun, I feel ashamed to myself. now, saya cuba paksa untuk letak kami berdua, I mean, eventho he is my mahram now, sy rasa malu wajah2 kami jd tatapan.

maksud di sini gmbar manje la noks. setakat gambo kahwin tu takdela kan, kateeee kahwin kene war2. kite war2 la kejap. pastu takde dah. ngahahaaha. nnt muntah org tgok gmbar ngko senahhh.

haihs, but it's ok, ini satu level kehidupan yang lain,

yang dikenali sebagai privacy :)