9 months and hormone attack

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

frankly speaking, I m not in good hormone condition right now.

rasa macam 'panas' je all the time. tehehe.

tapi tak mengamuk la. it just rasa unstable.

kejap tengok make up tutorial kat youtube, kejap tengok orang jual barang baby and most of the time tengok persiapan bersalin.

oh ya, now I am 9 months already. tengah tunggu masa baby nak say hi to the world.

padahal baby tak heran pon. mak pak je heran n gelabah.

last 2 weeks is the most sad week for me. I was confirmed that I have low BP. ermm blood pressure.

pitam sebelah tayar kereta, inability to walk etc. I was so sad till I told my SV bout this. Being cool her, she told me to refer specialist di Trganu and terus take leave.

just because a doc in Selangor cakap maybe I ll deliver within 2-3 weeks.

rasa berbelah bahagi nak berpisah dengan anak-anak bacteria. but its ok. nanti pas confinement kite tekan minyak betul-betul. As for now, redha dengan Allah's plan which is the best.

so for time being, my BP dah quite ok after check up with O n G di k.t. Daus will be back in 4 days and my weekly check up will be accompanied la kan.

pastu tengok la doc cakap cemane lg. if not, Daus will stay.

I am so nervous, cant tell.. because this is my first time. I keep thinking.. is it that hurt? knowing myself, I love motivation.. keep thinking, reverse pshycology can help me or not during baby delivery..awww.. 

I try to talk a lot with my Allah.. I can say during this time, I can feel His Love towards me by giving me chances to feel this kicking and moving of another human creature inside me. 

I am so blessed to have a good mom and mother in law too. they keep asking bout my condition. as usual, my mom will always comfort me. bjaye ke tidak tu belakang kire khen?

dan2 my mom asked me to bake traditional kuih for her - kuih sekaya.

okey mom, will do. I try to stay active to ensure my delivery will be easy, Inshaa Allah while my husband told me.. I am away, jgn aktif sgt, x smpt balik bapak nya kang.

hahaha. I dont know wut is happening around me, trust me, my hormone is controlling now :)))