redha

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

last night I was so curious about one thing, LOVE.

I love my mom so much that I cant describe how I feel.

I miss her everyday, like every single day.

semalam I was cried hard sebab terlalu rindu kan dia.

I miss her bedak smell, I miss her smile, every thing about her.

sampaikan diri ini berdoa, 

jika sampai satu hari, hari di mana akan ku luka kan hati ibu ku, ku mohon Allah tarik nyawa ku sebelum itu.

I can say every stage of my life mesti mak paling penting. mesti consult dengan mak.dan mak mesti nasihat buat apa-apa dahulu kan Allah.

the best advice I ever have from her, only from her.

orang cakap, bila kawan baik, die akan nangis bila kawan baik sedih.

one day, my mother told me a thing take make her felt so sad, her tears make me double sad.

and result nya, mak aku cemas sebab aku nangis lagi kuat dari dia. hihi

I dont know if I ever do something that make my mum mad at me. Nauzubillah.

before this aku selalu fikir, why I come here? I dont feel happy living alone. I hate to go out. I hate people dont understand what I talk. 

then, I remember, my mom told me, once ayu redha dengan setiap kejadian, ayu akan rasa manisnya hikmah Allah beri.

and lately, I feel the change.

I am happy to see things around my neighborhood, I love the rain smell here, I love how they help me because I am foreigner..I love the flowers

and yet..

I will put more on the things that I should put in my 'redha list'

yes, you are correct mom. you are always. semoga kita akan bahagia di dunia dan jannah Allah ye mi..

 I love you